Last Night-Skillet

Click here to hear "Last Night" by Skillet

The only way I know how to express my thoughts surrounding this is in a letter, to whomever I would marry (if I do).

Dear wife,

There is something about this song that speaks to me. It speaks to a desire in my heart. I want to be your hero. I want to rescue you, to make a promise to fight for you, beside you, forever.

I think this desire is in the heart of all men. We WANT to be the knight in shining armor. We want to fight for a King, a noble cause, a damsel. This desire speaks deeply to us. That's why we like movies where the hero rescues his beloved, because through that hero we live vicariously.

I want you to know, my armor has holes. Its kinda rusty. It doesn't shine in most areas. My sword is dull. My shield is scratched. My helmet, well, sometimes I don't see out the visor. Its not that I don't want to be better, I do. But...

I won't be the best husband. I'll work too much. I'll be tired when I get home. I'll just want to watch TV most of the time. There will be more times than I would like of you getting the leftovers of my time.

But I want to be a hero in your eyes. That's what men desire more than love, respect. To know that I'm a good man, at least in your eyes.

I also know that this somewhat comes from a weakness of mine. I have a tendancy to try to save others, to solve their problems. I enable them to need me. I will try not to fix you. Understand I will do so out of love, and a desire to be your hero. This does NOT mean you have to let me, to satisfy some error in my psyche. I only ask that you be understanding and gentle in correcting me.

With my love,
Knight